20 weeks and counting 

So we are more then half way through this pregnancy (will only be going until about 36 weeks as it is twins ) and I have to say it has been both the slowest 5 months and the quickest 5 months of my life!

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Ugh…..Yeah……It does actually……..

I have been so worried every step of the way when in reality this has been a fairly smooth and uneventful pregnancy so far…….

No bleeding, no morning sickness…….

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Oh don’t worry…..I am definitely having my share of side effects but nothing concerning……..Mostly I have had crazy headaches, back pain, constant peeing and most recently heartburn….oh and wait for it…….I have already gained 25 pounds+! Fun! I really can not complain though……

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Nah….I wouldn’t trade any of it for a million dollars!  I just can’t wait to have these little ones in my arms. Healthy and happy.

And just in case you were hoping to see weekly bump pictures……here ya go!

Isn’t it nice to see that the weight has been distributed ALL over my body….not just centre mass…..cause you know what would just give me a cute baby bump and pfffff who needs that!

A couple weeks ago I got impatient waiting for my next Ultrasound and decided to book a private scan on a Sunday morning……When you are an IVF patient all the mystery and surprise is taken out of this whole process and I really wanted a little bit of that back…….So I headed to the scan at 9am on a Sunday and told nobody except Shane……US was quick and with genders sealed in envelopes I headed to the party store and had 4 giant balloons blown up. 2 Blue and 2 Pink……We were headed to the beach with Shane’s cousin and his girlfriend for the day and I had an idea……

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Right!

So long story short we did a mini gender reveal at the beach…….Mark opened the envelopes and without looking up he told us what balloon each to release…..The pictures are literally when we found out the genders of the twins!Baby 2

One boy and one girl!

Blessed!

 


Such a happy day!

 

 

 

We are cleared for takeoff!

Just a quick update:

So after a couple months of set backs we are finally a go for our FET! Feels like that took forever!

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If there is one thing fertility treatments will teach you it is patience……..Patience and how to be a lunatic…….

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Just wait another month…..NBD

We were hoping February would be our month…..Finally….We have been waiting since our cancelled cycle in December but alas it wasn’t meant to be this month……again

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Dr. S (our RE) was dead set he wanted me to do  a HSG Test (he wanted to make sure there was no fluid leaking from my tubes as this could have caused my December miscarriage) and since you can’t do this test in the same cycle as a FET our hands were tied…..and so we wait.

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Lucy you have some splainin’ to do…….Part 1

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I know, I know…….

This is a post I wasn’t sure I was going to write…..but now I feel I am ready to…..

You may have noticed (but probably not) that my post’s have severely decreased in the past couple months…

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For the past 2 years we have been doing fertility treatments…..we have not hid this from our friends and family…….and I am glad…..we have needed the emotional support and I couldn’t have don’t the last two years with out these important people…….But it is not common knowledge to everyone we know…..

I am not ashamed or hiding it I just don’t think it is everyone’s business….Mostly I just can’t handle all the “advice” people have when they hear you are having trouble conceiving…….

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Everyone is different and just because it worked for your sisters, cousins, best friend…..doesn’t mean it will work for someone else……

So in the last two years…..

Shane has last 35 pounds, taken a handful of vitamins every single day and does every single crazy thing I have asked him to do……He lets me cry on his shoulder without making me think I am being dramatic…….He has been my rock….100%…..It has been hard on him as well but he has been so strong.

Before this process I was one of those “I hate needle people” but now I have been poked and prodded more then I can even explain…..Done every test under the sun……taken enough vitamins and supplements on a daily basis to choke a horse……Taken fertility drugs that make me hormonal, gain weight and in some cases bedridden…..Had more internal ultrasounds then I can count….Cried more then I have in the last 20 years combined……

At the end of all this we are told “unexplained infertility”

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Ummm….what????

I did one round of IUI with Clomid 

2 rounds of IUI with Puregon (A nightly needle Shane had to give me)

-Both failed…..Great

In October , right after the National Peace Officer Memorial Run, was finished we started our first round of IVF

And this folks is where

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This process has been the single most difficult thing I have ever been through in my life. You question every decision you have made in your life….You question God, the Universe and Karma…….What did I do wrong, Am I a bad person, Why do I fucking deserve this????

Maybe I am not strong enough to keep going…….

But I have to try…….

During the egg extraction cycle I had to learn to give myself the needles…..there were 3 needles a day and they were timed so I couldn’t guarantee that Shane would always be home to do them……I did it….the first time I thought I was going to throw up…..but I didn’t!

I started Acupuncture during the cycle and thank god I did….it was the only thing that helped. I was in so much pain after 12 days of stimulation I looked 4 months pregnant. I guess that’s what happens when you ovaries go from the size of a walnut to the size of an orange. I wasn’t allowed to work or exercise. Because of the overstimulation of the ovaries there is a risk with heavy physical activity,  I could end up with a twisted ovary and that is very dangerous……I had to pee every 20 minutes and just felt terrible.

On October 20th we headed to the clinic for surgery aiming for 10-15 mature follicles.

  • 17 follicles were retrieved
  • 13 were mature
  • 11 fertilized with ICSI

We decided that a Frozen Embryo Transfer (FET) was the best so I could recover from the retrieval and make sure I did have OHSS……I was sore, swollen and 10 pounds heavier….

But on day 5 it was all worth it…every single tear, needle, pound and appointment…… and we were beyond happy with some good news for a change……We were told we had 6 Day 5 Blastocyst’s to freeze. All great quality!

Transfer was loosely scheduled for the third week of November and cycle monitoring began again on October 29…….

TBC